I don’t hide this blog, my name is out there, you all know what city and state I live in and you’ve seen a select few pictures that I’ve decided don’t make me look like I just barbecued a rhino and chowed down. But at the same time, I don’t tell many people about it. Nobody I work with knows about it, only one of my friends that I see on a regular basis and none of my family except for my sister has ever read this site. Its not that I’m hiding it from them, I wouldn’t be upset or embarrassed if they came across it, I just…haven’t told them.

At first, it was no big deal. It was just a silly little thing that I did, this whole blogging thing. Type a few jokes, make fun of some idiots, bitch about the ovaries and blow off a little steam. But its become more than that. At the risk of sounding incredibly lame, it’s a big part of my life, I love it, its therapy and its worked better than anything I’ve ever tried… even most of the drugs. And I’ve made some great friends, people who have had big impacts on my life and especially my whole perspective on the infertility mess. Those people are now just as dear to me as the friends that I’ve had for years and years.

So at what point does NOT telling people in my everyday life about it become dishonest. Because that’s how its starting to feel. I’ve recently told a very dear friend who moved away (Hi Kat!) about this site and she emailed me and told me that she wished she had known all these sides of me when she was living here. And I didn’t even realize that there WERE other sides of me, I’ve always kind of considered myself a “here it is, this is me, I’m loud and a pain in the ass, take it or leave it but I make good cookies if that helps so please be nice to me because I have hidden oh so sensitive feelings…” kind of girl.

If your friends and/or families know about your sites, how did they find out? Did they stumble across them or did you tell them? What were their reactions? Did you feel the need to be more careful about what you wrote? I don’t want to censor myself, I think that would be dishonest…